A Necklace of New Beginning
So it has started, when we
start we don’t stop, i shouted, Almost pushing myself to the ear of my friend.
The music was loud and the place had alcohol more than water under its roof.
Four friends finally together after hectic day’s work, talking to each other,
one couldn’t ignore the discussions we were going to ignite among ourselves
with. In midst of loud music I had made up my mind that I won’t b drinking too
much atleast tonight . I was almost
tired of putting a fake smile and showing hollow laugh. Yes, yes, it was almost
a year now and still I couldn’t forget the fragrance of her hair and colour of
her eyes and whisper of her smiles, that one day this will all just be a dream
and she will come back and scream at me and complain to me about being late,
again. I so miss those time when I loved her screaming at me, that she herself
knew about it. She always used to call me nut head whenever I annoyed her. These
thoughts never left my mind and I knew it will always remain with me as my
priced possessions till my last breath. I so cursed God, my luck for this
utmost disarray in my life. This was the only thing which I did everyday.
“What’s up with the boss”, asked my friend almost in an
inebriated state.
“Bad rating, Projects
not ending as per plan.” I murmured as if talking only to myself.
“What’s the problem, is it because of her?” asked my other
friend.
“Nothing, luck’s not favoring me, right now, Hope it gets
better next year. This year has been dreadful.”
“Oh God! Why.” Almost shouting in my mind. I grabbed the
beer mug near me and emptied it in a gulp.
Ok Guys, I am out. Need to be somewhere else. Important
work. Almost giving a half handed
handshake to my friends.
I put my share of beer on table, grabbed my car keys and
left hurriedly, as if a dinosaur was behind me. Only to show my friends, I was
late.
Walking towards my car I constantly kept on thinking as in I
could have stayed there for more sometime, this get-together was for me, yet I walked
away. Part of me still didn’t wanted this, part of me still didn’t wanted to go
out without her, well as some say Alcohol do amplify emotions inside you.
Inside the car my eyes straight away glazed to the bright blue necklace on my
rare- view mirror which I had deliberately put there to remind me that she was
still with me.
It was her necklace which I took from her belongings after
her death and put it on my mirror. Somewhere I knew that whatever I was doing
was wrong and must stop, that’s why before coming to meet my friends, I put all
her belongings which were with me in a box and put it in my car’s boot space,
with an aim to give it to someone.
After huge melancholic state, I decided to start my car. But
as soon as I did that, I heard someone shouting. When I look back from the back
of my car’s window, I saw a girl there standing. She was wearing a blue jeans,
white t-shirt top with black jacket. I noticed that she was now approaching my
car.
“Hello, my car just broke and its not starting. Its late too
and I won’t find any mechanic now. This club is very far from city, Could you
just drop me to city or some place near it.” said the girl.
“Yes, I am going towards the city, I can drop you there.” I
replied.
“So late night partying?” she asked with a smile.
“Not really, I had come here to meet my friends after a long
time”. I replied without a smile and with first gear I put my car into motion
to reach our destination.
“Coming out of a club, still you look very depressed; why
so? Looks like you didn’t find this club amazing.”
“No, just been through some personal problems,” I replied
quick almost keeping my head straight towards road and not showing the signs
that I was least interested in discussions. With that I pressed my foot more
towards the accelerator. All I wanted was peace of mind and calmness and for
that I had to reach our destination as quickly as possible.
The car was now travelling at very high speed. I could see
any vehicles on road. It was a moderate cool night, with wind travelling at a
great speed, definitely a storm was coming.
I was now noticing the fragrance which she had put on
herself. After a long calmness, she pointed towards the blue necklace on the mirror.
“What’s that and why you have kept it there,” she asked in a
very curious manner.
“It is one of my friend’s belonging, who is not more now.”
“You should not keep ones belonging, once they have departed
this world. It’s not right.” Saying it in a demanding manner.
Yes, I know. I replied, as if I cared about the answer. I
would never want to remove that necklace from mirror.
Its her first death anniversary tomorrow, I added, still
didn’t know why I told that to her whom I had met just minutes before.
The girl next to me was now staring at me and thinking as if
she knew that I will never remove it. Its so sad that you are still stuck with
the memories and not moving forward. Things has to move and you should Let it
Go!
What I think, you should remove it now, she demanded.
I was almost annoyed with the discussion with the fact that
a random girl whom I was helping, was now interfering in my personal life, now
almost dictating.
You are behaving like a complete nut head, she proposed.
With her familiar words I immediately looked at her. It suddenly
caught my attention, hearing these words after a year. I was now continuously
staring at her.
You know what, I am going to remove it now, she said. Her
hand now touched the necklace almost trying to remove it.
Please don’t do it, I shouted . I also raised my hand and
almost quarreled with her hand in order to force her to give that necklace back
to me. With my attention diverting, I heard her screaming.
“LOOK FORWARD”, almost shouting.
All I could see was two bright light approaching towards us.
Looking at it I immediately turned my car’s steering. The car was completely
off the road and with the continuous momentum in it, the car rolled over two to
three times and finally stopping after covering few meters.
After loud shout and car noise, I looked towards the girl
and checked whether she was all right. My eyes were getting blur. All I hoped
we both were all right and none of us suffered any serious injuries. To my
surprise, she was not next to me. I tried to get out of car immediately but my
strength was getting weaker. I pushed the door out but still, I wasn’t able to
get out. My right foot somehow was still stuck up somewhere.
HELP anyone, Please HELP! I shouted with the purpose someone
will come and rescue us. I knew I was almost in good condition despite my
vision getting blur and some liquid over my right toe, which I was sure it was
blood. Still I didn’t pay any attention to it and I was continuously looking my
right and left searching for the girl.
My toe was hurting and my eyes were getting heavier as if I
hadn’t had any sleep for months. I still had my blue necklace with me in my
right hand. My fist was tight as if it wasn’t a necklace but herself and I don’t
want her to suffer any injuries. I was pushing hard to relieve my leg and
suddenly I saw one hand opening the door. I saw the face and it was the girl.
She looked perfectly all right. She removed my foot and
pushed me out of the car. My eyes were getting heavy.
You will be all right, just let it go, she said in a very
calm sweet voice.
Somehow her voice reminded me of my love. I don’t know but
tears came out . She took my hand in her hand and took the necklace. I tried to
resist, but my strength was getting depleted.
She was now looking straight into my eye and smiled.
“Don’t live in past, move ahead. Don’t let memories take you
over, its time to let it go.” She said to me, words which will now live with me
forever, words which I will never forget.
I will always be there for you, Always.
LET IT GO! Sweetheart. She said and all I could see was white
light around her face and I closed my eyes. Words Let it Go sweetheart still
echoing in my ears and in my mind.
I opened my eyes with someone shouting, Are you ok? Wake up!
When I regained my consciousness I noticed a familiar place
still doubting my judgment when I am hit by an accident of such force. My eyes
were expecting that girl who almost saved me. I could hear some male voice.
“Where am I?” I said almost murmuring.
Brother you were unconscious for almost ten minutes now,
replied a voice.
When I fully opened my eyes and regained consciousness I saw
I was back at the club and at its parking almost where I had parked my car and
the guy who was shouting was my friend with whom I was drinking in the club.
All my friends were there together with some other people. I was searching for
the girl who saved me. I wanted to thank her. The necklace was not in my hand.
I kept on assuming, that girl might have took it and kept it with her. She must
have brought me here. But why here and why not a hospital.
“Where is the girl, who bought me here?” I asked my friend.
Who girl, there is no one. We were in the club when I got a
call from your mobile. When I took your call, instead of you there was someone
who told me that you are unconscious in club’s parking. He found my number at
top in your mobile phone’s call log and called me and I rushed as soon as I ended
my call, my friend explained.
But how can this be possible. I left the club and with me
was a girl. She wanted to drop me at some place and we met with an accident and
my car rolled over the road, I explained.
I think you are not well, your car is here and in good
condition, said my friend pointed his finger to my car.
I was shocked to see that my car was okay and it didn’t have
a piece of scratch over it.
Now I wanted to get into depth and gathered my energy to
stand on my feet. I looked at myself and I was almost all right with a little
pain in my feet. I checked my foot and all I could deduce it was more of a
bruise than a cut. I was now closely checking my car front to back which didn’t
have any signs of accident of what so ever. I was questioning myself what was
going on with me. What is reality, this or that accident. Where is that girl,
all these questions kept hitting my brain like bullets.
I was opening my cars door when I realized no blue necklace
there on mirror and I yelled at my friend. See I was right, there is no
necklace almost rejoicing, to prove my friend that I was not mad and I did
suffered with an accident. All I didn’t have the answers right now, as in how
and when!
I opened the boot space of my car, to my surprise all my
love’s belongings which I had kept there in order to give it to someone was
also missing. Apart from that, nothing was missing, my laptop was there in my
back seat, my suit everything as I had kept it. Now my head was aching like
nothing. Only my love’s belonging’s were missing, Sia’s belongings were missing.
Was it some sort of indication or idea from her or from GOD
that I shouldn’t be living in memories. I should infact move forward. I still
remember and I know I couldn’t forget the words, LET IT GO Sweetheart, were
still in my mind. Was it to make me realize, All good things must come to an
end and one should accept reality of life no matter what.
I knew Sia was in my heart and will always remain there no
matter what despite her things were not there with me . I know people will
never believe what I experienced today, and I myself also don’t want them to believe
me. This feeling I wanted to keep it with me, that I was with the one whom Ioved
the most in my life. And I was now smiling with myself.
“Are you ok?” my friend questioned with a worried look on
his face.
Yes ,yes, totally. I was sick earlier, now I am in perfect
condition.
Could you just drop me to my place? I asked my friend. With that
my friend nodded his head.
With all the thoughts and thinking about what I had just
witnessed, I kept my head on the window to give it a rest. An inner peace was
as if attained. In my heart I know wherever Sia was, she was happy and also
wanted me to be happy.
My friend start the car and I joked with him, you shouldn’t be
driving, you drank today.
Everything was Normal!
Rohit
Raina
